Hearts on Fire 8: Saving C.C.(9)By: Dixie Lynn Dwyer
“I have to admit. I have a hard time taking my eyes off of her while she’s working.”
Kyle looked at Mercury. “Really? You mean like you like her, find her attractive?”
“Shit, Kyle,” Mercury said. “Look at her. She’s gorgeous, petite, sweet, and friendly. She not skin and bones, and when she’s close, I get this sensation and awareness of her. It’s different than just finding a woman to be attractive. It’s hard to describe. But she doesn’t date and neither do I.”.
He didn’t date because he had been involved with Felicia and she cheated on him. His brothers had never like Felicia, but he thought she was fun. Then he found out she just wanted to fuck him and his brothers and not have a serious relationship.
“You’ve had those feelings for women before, Mercury.”
“No, this is different. Maybe because she doesn’t respond to any man flirting with her I see it as a challenge? I don’t know. I don’t think so. I want to know more about her, and I think you do, too.”
Kyle swallowed hard and then looked at his brother. Mercury could see the seriousness in Kyle’s eyes as well as the sadness. It seemed his brother never got over his injuries and having to quit the police department and a job he loved. But he could have died, and he lived in New York. Now that he was back home, they could all keep eyes on one another.
“I’ve got nothing to offer her, to any woman, really,” Kyle said to Mercury.
Mercury was shocked. “What?” he asked, eyes wide, and then he lowered his voice. “Why would you think that?”
Kyle shrugged and then took a slug of beer from his beer bottle.
“I can hardly move my shoulder. I can’t even do much work at the shop with Frank and the other guys. We had to hire another mechanic, and sometimes when the weather is rainy or cold, I tighten up even more.”
“You’re not the only one with some pain from injuries. You’ve dealt with them fine, just as Frank has.”
“Mercury, it makes me feel weak, like I’m not man enough in a lot of ways, okay? Just leave it be. I shouldn’t have said anything.”
Mercury placed his hand on his brother’s shoulder and gave it a squeeze. “Hey, I’m your brother. The four of us are super close, even more so now that you’re home and we’re all together. If you’re in pain, or feeling shitty about it, talk to me. I’ll listen and be there for you.”
“And does that go for you too? The sharing about feelings and trying to move on?”
Mercury knew Kyle was talking about Felicia.
He took a deep breath and released it. It had been over a month, but the feelings were still raw. It was hard for him to believe that a woman would cheat on him, especially one he thought about sharing with his brothers if they were interested.
“It’s hard to admit to feeling pain, feeling used when you’re a man and you’re supposed to be so macho and strong about shit.”
“But she did hurt you. She was trash, and you were blinded by her lies and manipulating ways.”
“I was, but it’s over, so it doesn’t matter.”
“Doesn’t it? I mean seeing what you went through, and knowing what we all want in life and a relationship, does put fear in all of us that we could get hurt, get screwed by some woman.”
“I guess so. That’s probably why none of us date or take a woman seriously.”
“That isn’t right either,” Kyle said. “I don’t know. I look around us sometimes, and I see what our friends have and I’m envious and jealous. But then I think about my faults and I feel like shit.”
“I do the same thing. I don’t know what to say except that we should just live our lives and try to remain positive that something good will happen for all of us.”
“I guess so. Plus considering that Frank is so anti-social and Jenks is always on an adventure when he’s not working, it would be hard to do anything together.”
“That’s for sure. In fact, where the hell did he go this weekend?” Mercury asked about their brother Jenks, who was a firefighter.
“Skydiving or some shit with a few buddies from the academy.”
“Great. I hope he comes back in one piece, and if Mom calls, or the Dads, I’m not telling them where he is.”
Kyle laughed. “Good luck to any of us dodging calls from Mom.”
Mercury chuckled, and then he caught sight of C.C. as she headed toward the other end of the bar, where Jerome made her some drinks.
She was very attractive and a bit mysterious. Who was she really, and could he and his brothers ever let their guards down, show some vulnerability, and trust a woman to open up to? Or was that just some fantasy better left for lonely nights in bed than for reality?